Sunday, May 31, 2020

Evening thoughts. May 31, 2020

Evening thoughts. May 31, 2020

Cumming, Georgia 2020

 

Right after yesterday’s post I learned that the daughter of one of my African America neighbors was stopped by two other neighbors. They cut her off while she was practicing riding a motorcycle in the neighborhood. Given that they were white, in Forsyth County, in a pickup, and felt they had the right to pull over a young, black female doing nothing at all wrong, I’d say there was a better than 50/50 chance there was a gun in one of the two cars involved in pulling her over. America. In 20fucking20.

 

Continuing my listening to James Baldwin, Notes of a Native Son during my running. Baldwin describes the shooting of an unarmed black soldier by a white NYPD cop in a Harlem hotel lobby in 1943 and the ensuing riot. He describes the looting of stores as “inefficient” and that they the rioters had to smash something…”even if it was themselves.” That scene is playing out now, minus the cell phone video. How can we imaging that same despair and rage is not present nearly 80 years later. If James Baldwin is not on my son’s American lit reading list next year, I’m going to try and get it there.

 

O, let America be America again—
The land that never has been yet—
And yet must be—the land where every man is free.
The land that's mine—the poor man's, Indian's, Negro's, ME—
Who made America,
Whose sweat and blood, whose faith and pain,
Whose hand at the foundry, whose plow in the rain,
Must bring back our mighty dream again. – Let America Be America Again. Langston Hughes

 

Seems trivial to mention it, but I had my first 100 mile running month of the year in May and I’ll cross 400 miles for the year tomorrow.


On my mind this morning – May 30, 2020

Sad and not surprised by the riots in Atlanta last night. I’m filled with rage and I don’t face racism every day. I don’t see people who look like me murdered on camera on a regular basis. I feel like America is so broken right now and I don’t know what to do or where to start.

Killer Mike. For a guy who did not want to be there and had nothing to say it was 8 minutes of brilliant testimony. “Plot, Plan, Strategize, Organize and Mobilize.” It should be required viewing.  https://youtu.be/JxHWVJYXkeU

I wonder sometimes how my black friends function. How they can sit in a meeting with me talking about some inconsequential work issue and not want scream at me or rip my head off. This who system and country is so messed up right now. And it's gotten worse day by day over the last 3 years.

Which leads me to my next bullet. It’s absolutely political. From the racist occupying the White House to his enablers through every level of government down to local reps who vote against hate crimes bills and voting rights and for loosening gun laws that arm and enable Ahmaud Arbery’s killers. And don’t give me any of the “both sides suck” bullshit. We have a decision to make in November. It’s like picking from two pizzas. One may have olives and mushrooms you don’t like and not have the pepperoni you want, but the other has a giant turd in the middle of it. This should not be a hard choice. Unless you just love the turd. Vote. Them. All. Out.

Running. I’ve been a runner for over 30 years. Right after Jenny and I got married we lived in a new neighborhood and I would always check out the new houses, sometimes looking for a door that was not locked so I could see what they looked like. I thought maybe the builder might come up and be mad sometime but even that never happened. It never dawned on me that a neighbor would come up to me with a gun. It’s just not part of my reality.

Also running. I just finished listening to The Fire Next Time by James Baldwin. Some of what he describes from the 50’s and 60’s seems to have barely changed. “God gave Noah the rainbow sign, no more water but fire next time.”

Police. I got pulled over by my local sheriff’s deputy last year at 2 am. I ran a red light two miles from my house after I’d been driving all day and was just exhausted. He asked me if I had been drinking (I had not). He never asked me to take a breathalyzer or field sobriety test, he never asked me to get out of my car. He ran my license and tag, told me to be careful and sent me home. Not even a warning. How do I square that with the experience so many of our black friends and neighbors have?


Sunday, May 10, 2020

Speaking out, followed by action.

I am grateful for all the eloquent words written in response to Ahmaud Arbery’s death. It is important for people to speak out. Our faith leaders’ voices, and the moral weight they carry have been especially impactful to me, particularly those words spoken from remote pulpits this morning. It is important for all of us to speak out. And words must be followed by action. A quote from Elie Wiesel is stuck in my mind: “We must take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented... Wherever men and women are persecuted because of their race, religion, or political views, that place must - at that moment - become the center of the universe."

Ahmaud Arbery was murdered because he was black. Of that there is no doubt. Racism is a persistent stain that we may never completely wash from our national fabric. Changing hearts and minds is hard. But as in so many other instances, our laws and our legislators embolden, enable, empower our worst instincts and make Ahmaud’s killers not just ugly, ignorant racists, but also deadly racists with the law on their side. Action in the form of votes is required to change this.

Case in point: A trifecta of Georgia laws, Open Carry, Citizen’s Arrest and Stand Your Ground, that allow people to walk around armed, take the law into their own hands and apply deadly force even though they don’t have to. A jury will have to decide whether any of these laws apply in this case, but it’s impossible to imagine Ahmaud’s killers didn’t have these in mind when they left their house with a .357 and a shotgun, chased him down and initiated a confrontation.

None of these laws will change with our current crop of state legislators. Todd Jones, my local state house representative voted for campus carry (to put more guns in more places) and against the Georgia Hate Crimes bill, as did Sheri Gilligan, our other Forsyth country state representative. Georgia is of only five states with no hate crimes statute. Todd also supported cutting back early voting in some counties, limiting citizens’ access to the polls. And after repeatedly and personally promising action after the Parkland shootings in 2018, he did exactly nothing. 

Greg Dolezal, my state senator, hasn’t been around long enough to do as much bad shit, but he did sponsor a bill in this year’s session to bring more guns into churches and tighten up the definition of “brandish” a firearm so I can pull a gun on you, I just can’t point it at you.

All of this is personal experience or can be found in the legislative record. I’ve had coffee 1 on 1 with both Todd and Greg. Nice guys, and while they might give lip service to some of these issues, I am convinced they will do nothing other than possibly make it worse.

We need new legislators who will work to change our laws for the better, not perpetually make them worse. Tomorrow, May 11, 2020 is the last day to register to vote in our primary elections. You can register to vote here > https://registertovote.sos.ga.gov/GAOLVR/welcome.do#no-back-button. You can request an absentee ballot here > https://georgia.gov/vote-absentee-ballot . Yeah, it’s a bit of a pain, but if you want change you have to actively engage in the process.

Seven year ago I wrote a blog (https://faithpoliticsstatsandrandomstuff.blogspot.com/2013/11/the-sad-death-of-ronald-westbrook.html) about a retired Air Force officer and Alzheimer’s patient who was murdered by a neighbor who then, like now, decided to grab his gun and take the law into his own hands. He shot Ronald A. Westbrook, Lt. Col. USAF, (Ret.) when Mr. Westbrook did not follow commands. Where have we heard that before? And Mr. Westbrook's killer faced no charges.

I’m sending my absentee ballot in today. I did not plan this at the time, but the last stamps I ordered from the US Post Office feature John Lennon and Marvin Gaye. I bought them because I like their music. Lennon was 40, Marvin Gaye was 44. 
As I put the stamps on my ballot, I can’t help but think that these are two more people we lost way too early due to gun violence. 

The saying that it’s insanity to do the same thing and expect different results has become a cliché, but it’s a cliché because it’s true. And it’s insanity to keep the same legislators and expect better laws. It’s time to change these laws and do to that we have to change our legislators. Vote.

Thursday, April 30, 2020

Free (audio) Books

Pre-COVID I set goals for the year around running (1,000 miles) and reading (5,000 pages, not including audio books.)

I almost always have a book going on my phone or on CD in my car, but I've never invested in an Audible subscription. $12.99 a month for one book that I am not sure I'll love seems like too much of a commitment, especially with other options available. So here's my 100% free 2020 audio book reading list, so far:


  • Education of an Idealist. Samantha Power. Obama's UN Ambassador. Tells her story of growing up in Ireland, moving to the US at age 8 (about the time I was moving to Ireland from the US), serving as a war correspondent in Bosnia and finally being appointed UN ambassador. She covers the humanitarian disaster in Syria and her struggles with US policy in depth. From the Forsyth County Public Library. 
  • Measure What Matters. John Doerr. Management book on OKRs (Objective and Key Results). We are adopting this at work. Lots of great case studies from Intel, Google, Gates Foundation and others. From our company e-learning platform, Percipio. The IOS app is so-so. 
  • Sapiens. From the library, wanted like it, but just couldn't. 
  • Finish. Jon Acuff. Short treatise on finishing goals. Acuff is an entertaining writer. He was one of our general session speakers at our customer conference last year. Very entertaining narrator of his own work. From the library.
  • The Obstacle is the Way. Ryan Holiday. Holiday is a modern stoicism guru. Makes you rethink challenges that get in the way. “The impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way.” -Marcus Aurelius. I'll definitely read more of Holiday's stuff. From YouTube. You can get lots of fully narrated audio books on YouTube. 
  • 1984. Orwell. A classic, now more than ever. Don't get me started on Minitrue. If you haven't read it, you should. This is my 4th or 5th time, I think. YouTube. This one actually has the text page by page so you can read along. The app is pretty good as long as you have data access. I use the free version of YouTube. 
While the library branches are closed right now, most have digital audio services. I just browsed mine and checked out Fight Club (Chuck Palahniuk) Never read it or saw the movie. 

So, if you are looking to read more, there are plenty of free resources for audio books out there. Enjoy, and please share if you have some good ones I've missed. Stay safe and healthy. 

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

First Coronavirus Blog


I was talking with a friend yesterday. His office is effectively closing. All staff who can work from home, must work from home, even if they prefer to come in. We all need to take this approach. If you have the ability to work from home (your company allows it, you can do your job, you have the right technology in place) you should. We owe it to all the folks who don’t have that same flexibility: first responders, medical workers, check out people at the grocery store, food service workers and on and on. And don’t forget about the farmers. My dad reminded me of them today. There’s a time to sow and a time to reap and the crops don’t care what else is going on. Hunkering down is the only way to blunt the spread of the virus and if we can we must. 

The Washington Post has a great visualization showing the impact of social distancing on blunting
the spread of the virus.


Most schools, colleges and universities are moving to online instruction. While online instruction is great, it has the potential to leave kids who are already behind due to lack of access to technology even further behind. And for many kids school is where they get two meals a day. The local schools in my area are working to get meals to kids, but the local food banks are straining under the pressure. Help if you can. 


I’ve been wondering. Is this what Climate Change will look like, with years and decades compressed down to days, weeks and months? Maybe we decide to listen to the science going forward. 

What will you do with all that time? I get 5 hours a week back from not commuting alone. Since I will spend much time video conferencing I have to look presentable, but only  from the neck up, so time saved there too. We can come out of this better than we went in. We can invest time with our families, learn, read, write, think, run and on and on and on. Or we can “Fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way.”

Speaking of writing, write stuff down. Start a blog or journal. I told my son today that people will be talking about this for a hundred years and more beyond. Keep up with what’s happening and what you are thinking about. I can see blogs and journals becoming a record of this time the same way diaries and letters home from the front were in the past. 

All we can absolutely control is how we respond as each hour and day passes. A great message from yesterday’s Daily Stoic. https://dailystoic.com/remember-you-dont-control-what-happens-you-control-how-you-respond/. Side note, this is a great daily email. 

Be kind and stay calm. Even (especially) when others aren’t. You can’t know what they are dealing with, fears, anxieties, family issues etc. If you’ve got your shit together at that moment, keep it together and hope that you receive that same grace when the time comes you need it. 

Stay in touch. Leverage all the tech or just pick up the phone.

Read the local paper. The Atlanta Journal Constitution provides excellent local coverage. I expect your local paper does too. And a good review of the daily newspaper can help prevent the urge to obsess over the news all day long. See above. 


Tuesday, October 29, 2019

My Favorite Podcasts



I am almost always listening to a podcast. It's constantly amazing to me how much high quality content is available on the web for free. Of course, there's a lot of crap out there too.

So, to help you avoid the crap, here's a curated list, in no particular order, of my favorites.

  1. Against the Rules. Micheal Lewis, author of The Blindside, Moneyball, and The Big Short discusses the decline of referees in American society. I am listening to "The Seven Minute Rule", a show about student loan servicing companies screwing their customers. 
  2. Hardcore History. Dan Carlin. Carlin does a deep dive into various historical periods. My personal favorite is "Blueprint for Armageddon", a six part series on World War I. It's over 20 hours of high quality content that I'd put up against any college level course on the Great War. Plus Carlin's voice is awesome.
  3. Akimbo. Seth Godin. A quirky podcast in Godin style.
  4. Daily Boost. Scott Smith. A nice first thing in the morning pick me up. About 10 minutes of self improvement. 
  5. Day1. Short sermons. 
  6. Focus on This. Michael Hyatt and Company. Setting goals, etc. 
  7. Mom and Dad are Fighting. Slate Magazine podcast on parenting. I listen to a ton of business/leadership/self improvement stuff and I figured I should try something on parenting. The title grabbed my attention. 
  8. White Lies. NPR. Seven episode podcast covering the murder of James Reeb, a Boston priest and civil rights worker murder in Selma, Alabama in 1965. Some of locals interviewed last year for the podcast still refer to MLK coming to Selma to "stir up trouble". 
  9. The Minimalists. Ryan Nicodemus and Joshua Fields Milburn. Watch the Netflix show then listen to the podcast. Hard to believe, but we've got too much shit and businesses are trying to get us to buy more. 
  10. The One Thing. Based on the principle in the book. Great weekly podcast on focusing on the "lead domino" and getting stuff done. 
  11. Entre Leadership. Dave Ramsey Network. Yes, that Dave Ramsey. 
  12. The Tim Ferriss Show. Tim Ferriss. Tim is the author of The Four Hour Work Week and he is an excellent interviewer. The show is long form interviews with thoughts leaders from across the spectrum. 
  13. Blackout. Fictional radio drama about a power outage from an unknown source that sends a Maine town into chaos and anarchy. Rami Malek from Mr. Robot and Bohemian Rhapsody plays the lead. 
Any favorites you want to share?

Thursday, February 21, 2019

The Psalms and a Spreadsheet. Working to a deadline


One of my favorite passages of scripture is Psalms 90. There’s a lot to learn there, regardless of your faith background. In it, Moses discusses time from God’s perspective.

4 For a thousand years in Your sight
Are like yesterday when it passes by,
Or as a watch in the night…
10 As for the days of our life, they contain seventy years,
Or if due to strength, eighty years,
Yet their pride is but labor and sorrow;
For soon it is gone and we fly away.

Time ticks away for us but in the grand scheme it’s a tick of the clock or a passing night. In fact, according to Biomimicry.net if we compressed the age of the earth to a calendar year, humans appear on December 31 @ 11:36 pm.

And comparing the years of a life to Universal time is even more humbling. 70 or 80 years out of 13.8 billion. 0.00000054%.

But I digress.  The key message is in verse 12.
So teach us to number our days,
That we may gain a heart of wisdom.

It’s good to remember that we are all working to a deadline. Whether it’s close of business Friday or the end of a life, we don’t have forever. By recognizing and numbering our days (and hours and minute) we can appreciate how limited our time is and spend those weeks days hours minutes doing what matters most, so that when we look back on a life we have something we can take pride in.  

And I promised a spreadsheet, so here it is. I’ve mentioned before that I love a good visualization. I heard about this starting with an interview with Tim Urban, then his Ted Talk, Inside the Mind of a Master Procrastinator and finally his blog, Wait but Why.
This is his 90-year life in weeks. I added a few milestones of my own in gold. Moving overseas, first job, wedding, kids. Dark blue is the time that’s past. The grey at the end is unknown. Maybe I don’t make it to 90. Maybe I end up with a physical or mental ailment and I don’t have the quality or ability to contribute at the end. I don’t know. Nobody does.

The red stripe represents the almost full year this blog has been stirring around in my mind. After all this it’s not a big deal, but it’s been consuming my thoughts and floating around in my head as an “undone” all this time.

The (shrinking) light blue is the Future. There’s a lot of it and at the same time not very much.

Unknown. Potential. Possibility. Opportunity.

Oh Shit. At the End, somewhere, is the Dead-line.